When I was a little girl, I knew I was an odd one because I never dreamed of my wedding, the dress I would be wearing, what colors I would choose for my theme, etc.
I didn’t have crushes often, I didn’t flirt, I didn’t doodle boys names on my binder, I didn’t care frankly.
As I grew to be a teen, I noticed the opposite sex but I still didn’t make any moves.
I got older and while I went on a few dates and got to know someone on a serious level, it didn’t work out and I know, it was for the best.
I am a very private person.
I’ve never felt the need to broadcast my entire life to feel important.
I take pride in all that I do and the decisions I make.
As of March 5th, I am honored to let my readers know that I am now dating.
I will not be posting how many bouquets he surprises me with.
How often he spoils me with gifts.
The amount of money and time he spends with me, for me, considering me, etc.
I could write volumes of books and fill them with all the wonderful things he’s done for me but even that would still never be enough.
I know what it is to watch others boast about how great their partners are and I think it’s really sweet but it’s not me and I know how much it can hurt a person.
There’s a fine line between being proud of the man you are with and there is another in boasting and wanting to make others jealous.
If I do post about him, it will be crafts or date ideas I do with him or for him.
I promise I will not make you sick of him or us.
Know that I will keep our relationship private, know that we are very happy and know that we have come a long way.
Please respect our privacy.
This will all be new to me so it is a learning process and while I am afraid of the unknown, I know that we are strong enough because we have Jehovah.
To those who doubt, who question, and who will try to intervene: Your time will come too. I promise you that it will.
It really is true what they say, that love finds you when you least expect it.
Try not to be so hard on yourself, I know it hurts and I know it’s not fair but it will find you and it will consume you. Let it.
You don’t have to like me, you don’t have to like my partner but we are happy, and we hope someday you are happy too.
To those who support: From the bottom of my heart, thank you. Your genuine kindness is very much appreciated and will not go unnoticed.
To him: I know you have loved me for years now and while I tried to push you away, you stayed.
You gave me the best of what you had.
You constantly put me first.
You stood up for me.
You sparked the fire I thought I lost a very long time ago.
I was beyond terrified of commitment but I am now ready to give up my independence to be by your side.
I’ll admit that I will miss my old ways but I know that what I am giving up is nothing compared to what I am gaining.
Thank you for appreciating me, for accepting who I am, for cherishing me and for being willing to try and tame me. Not everyone is as brave and not everyone has been as successful.
I’ll never know what you see in me.
I don’t understand how someone like me could have attracted someone as kind as you but here we are.
Your love for Jehovah is evident in the way you love and respect me and I could never repay you.
I love you and regardless of where we end up in the future, together or apart, you will always matter so much to me.
“I’m your girl and you’re my man, and we’re makin’ plans.”
– R. Vargas